Hiatus Is OVER. (:

So I'm back & better than EVER.
Enough said, So I'm Out! (:

Little Girl,

Little Girl.
With the crushed wings,
Sat there upon the Old Oak Tree..
Tears streaming like a river...
Down her sunkissed skin.

Simply hiding her pain within.

"Little Girl,"
I started to say...
"Where is your family..."
And she simply stared at me.
And then she took my hand.

Simply leading me to her secret Land.

I walked through her Thoughts,
And dove into her Secrets.
Ran through her Mind.
And I soon saw a little girl,
Who wasn't being raised by family.

Simply her own real "mommy".

Feeling abandoned & alone.
No real place to call home.
Left to make big girl decisions.
In a world so cold.
Left feeling so inferior

Simply because that Little Girl, was staring back at me through the mirror.

Crushed Wings.

A mother's duty, is to build character
& teach her child to fly on their own.
Into the real world,
So that that child- may find it's own home.
However, now and days
It's become a burden to some mothers-
to understand "teens will be teens".
But instead they want to get...
More or less, mean.
The pain they cause,
They may not realize...
but in MY body,
a broken heart resides.
She is my queen
& this she KNOWS...
but this anguish & pain,
oh boy, how it grows.
The tears don't change anything...
I can't even rhyme anymore.
I'm so ashamed.
Of the things you do,
& most of all whatchu say...
I'm so tired of apologizing to my friends
and most of all YOU,
for the normal things a teen wants to do.
Depressed for a year, thoughts in my head,
The pain that I've dread has come back again
To win me over, and my strength went with you
to hampton this weekend...
So if you come back, to a child missing.
Just be kissing me goodbye....
Damn, at least I tried. );

Church Today

So, today was Family & Friends Day at church & it was AMAZING!
I wish church was always like that.
The Spirit was moving (;
thats all. BYE!

Hmm.

& with this pink mohawk-

it looks like it kicked kelis hard!

haha, it's different- but PINK? of all colors.

GET REAL.

WTFF???

Christina && The Dream

So are you freakin kiddin me!??

Christina, you are defff too pretty for THAT!

However, The Dream has good taste... But hers is questionable.

blessings to the new couple.;;

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF THE DAY.

So, it's pretty freakin early. & I'm not tired at all.

I'm in North Carolina, laying in the floor next to my godsis- we're bored.

We lost track of time talking about funny stories,

So I can't go to sleep... but anyway. I don't know what to talk about.

Psh... What about Wendy Williams!?

Home girl is freakin hilarious. I love her..

HOW YOU DOIN?

I love her HOT TOPICS portion. I thought she was gone be corny-

but she's an interesting individual.

Yeah. I'm thinking about writing about a book-

And the narrator has an obsessive crush...

Should the book get insane like the movie Obsessed?

OR should I let remain subtle, with cute words describing the passion?
AND should the main character be a guy or girl?

OH! I needa know what I should get done to my nails....

Here are some pics:

Welp

Even when it hurts the most,

When the tears dry,

I reamin- Stronger than ever.

Not woman, nor a little girl. Simply, Me.

The pain, and the glort, all make me.

Complete in every way.

BAM!

talk about fabulous!!

love, love, LOVE her shoes....

she ain't never gonna stop!

BELIEVE IT!

Final Goodbye,

Dear YOU,

As I sit here, with you in my ear & continue a conversation with my godsister- I've come to realize, as I have so many times before, that I need to let you go.You and I both deserve so much more, but not from one another- but from different people. The time has come to let the past be the past & stop trying to recreate it. You're still the same little kid you've always been, and always be. But I'm not that little girl who was head over hills in love. I grew up, and I wish you'd do the same. You hurt me- wether you realize it or not. And the things I use to love, annoy me... because NOTHING has changed. I will always love you, but I have to allow myself to fall out of love to you.... So this my love, is my final goodbye.

Love Always,


Jordyn.

Don't Call It A Comeback.*

So, Beyonce Knowles is doin the damn thing! (excuse me).

Without a doubt- this is one of her best CDs yet- SASHA FIERCE has arrived!
& it's better late than never. All the new hit singles & videos highlight her creativity, talent, & beauty. Simply amazing. (;

My Personal Favorite-

Sweet Dreams, Beyonce (;

AN UPDATE ON RECENT EVENTS.

FOREVER 21. If you've never shopped there, Honey- you're missing out. I can't walk in there without buying something- but that have something to do with my addiction to retail. (; Premiring veryyy soon, will be CIRQUE 21 (; Cannot wait. FOREVER 21 WITH A TWIST. Doesn't get much better then this!

So, why is everyone mimicking Brittney's mishap & Amber's claim to fame... Balding comes with age. So why is it so freakin common now!? I'm simply aggravated....

HOWEVER, in light of recent events.... There is a fresh of breath air. Well three. (; My babies, New Boys & Drake (; Whoooooooooo. Drake is like the antidote to hip hop insanity. Finally. & the New Boys are like a rebirth of our parents era, fun music. Other topics as opposed to sex, drugs, and money. (;

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF THE DAY.

So you tried to BREAK me?
Lied to me, cheated on me, and attempted to break me down!!
Well, I'm too strong for that. Mama ain't raise no fool baby boy.

I saw the signs... And knew what they were & prepared for that.
"Tears may endure for a night, but the morning will bring joy"
& boy, did they!? Indeed.
My faith is too strong to let any BOY bring/hold me down.

My Obsessions

So it's a few crazy, real, and raw females out here, who have kinda made me think, change my style, as well as my way of thinking. Sooooooo.... I'll let you into my brain a little bit. (;

Amber Rose.

Lauren Conrad.

Nicki Minaj.

Rihanna.

& finally, I swear if I was gay (haha) -- Megan Fox.

So,

It's 3:49 & I'm up crying over my past....
I can't get "HIM" out of my head. I loved him.
I love him. & he's been the only guy I've ever trully loved,
my entire life. I'm crying as I write this...
It hurts so bad, to love someone- who doesn't love you back.
And if he does love me back... I sure as hell can't tell.
Because REAL love, NEVER disappears.
Never randomly just goes away. It can't disappear because you want it to.
It's like a ghost & no matter what you do or how hard you try-
You'll always love them.... & that's how I know he doesn't love me.

Life doesn't ask you what you want.
But sometimes you have to tell it. And not give up.
I guess I made the mistake and gave up....
And I let go. I haven't looked back until now.
Until it hurt the most, but is all I ever wanted.
It's what I want. I love that kid more than anyone has ever loved anything.
He has been my whole world... for a while.
( a time I won't mention- cause you'll probably think I'm crazy )
Sooo, I leave you with this-
L-O-V-E (?)
Meaning? Does love trully exsist? Can it ever be mutually as strong between two people? Or is it nothing more, thn a metaphor... Simply a slice of fiction meant to teach us all different lessons in life....? Maybe just heartache. That's all "love" has EVER left me with, heartache.

GoodNight. Simply, Jordyn.

I Wonder....

I wonder if everybody hid the fact that they're were many struggles in life,
if struggles would exsist at all...
I wonder if human beings never had the capability to feel,
if someone would break the mold to love...
I wonder if the past had never occured and laws had been changed,
if anyone would've ever stepped up to the plate...
I wonder if the human ability to remember & cherish was nonexsistant,
if we would be able to hold on to the pain we experience.


I REALLY WONDER..... );

"Based On A True Story"

So, are the movies such as The Haunting of Conneticut, The Exorcism of Emily Rose, ect. trully based on a true story? If they are such true stories, why do they only happen else where of NORMAL places? Like they just so happen to randomly happen in the middle of NOWHERE, or smack dab in the middle of the woods?! Makes no sense to me.

And REALLY! Do things like this happen: ?

If so, why don't NORMAL people see these types of thingss? Any of my friends or family- or even myself!

Sincerely,

A Girl. Named J.Danay (;

Question(s) Exsisting.

I sat up all night last night, and as my day has gone on today-
Many questions came to mind....

Why is it that it's so easy to fall in love, but hard to fall out?
Why is it that someone can have such a strong hold on you, and not even know it?
Why is it that tears make you feel better, but never take the pain away?
Why is it so hard for a father to step up to his duties when unprepared,
when a mother has no choice?
How is it that a man can tear a woman to shreads without blinking an eye?
How is it that a man can rarely ever trully be a MAN?

Once you sit down & ponder amongst life, how can you not come across questions....?

Sincerely,
A Girl. Named Jordyn <3

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF THE DAY.

So, has it ever occured to you that life in general isn't like the movies?
Romance, Friendships, & Especially HIGH SCHOOL!
They make it seem like if you're extremely smart, with no sense of fashion- you're "invisible".

Just like in LOVE DONT COST A THING.

They also make it seem like love is such a major thing in young life, as if its the most important. Or that's odeee hard to move on- which its not once you get your mind right. Or they make it seem as if guys like the ones they fall in love with in the movies really exsist on an everyday basis. When clearly, 85.7% of the male race of JERKS (:

Just like in THE NOTEBOOK.

Every aspect of life is difficult, but it can be enjoyable if you alow yourself to accept the world & your flaws. The movies create this mythical world, in which many people absorb themselves in & use to psych themselves out about certain situation or solve situations the way handled in a movie. This is defintely NOT a smart idea at all, but I guess we'll see how that turns out for those in the end...

Sincerely,
A Girl. Named Jordyn (;

Getting My Day Started.

SO, I see how BLOGGING can be addicting.

Well, I woke up 30 minutes before my bestie Quiara came over-

(that's her in the pic with me)

And now we're looking to go to the freakin mall!

So we're going on a walk..... (;

I'll probably add more in a little while....

As I sit here and have RANDOM conversations with Qui, I've come across the idea & thought-

Why aren't there bus systems in the county?

Clearly, teens don't drive until a certain age- & it's boring being in the house

And even harder finding a ride places....

Maybe I should take this to the STATE FREAKIN BOARD! (;

For Ebb, My Love.

Well, our beautiful friendship started my freshmen year at MHS. Bleh,

But with her, plus very few others, I got through it. Lol.

This my NORMAL fashionista icon (:

She designs clothes, in which my shirt is pending...

And I'm kinda thinking I want that skirt Jeeyah was rocking too! Haha.

& i love her, plus she fabulousss-

So who wouldn't love her?

& we have a lot of the same thoughts & intrest! So, haha (:
I just wish we were the same bra size! lmfaoooo.

Just Kidding, (: But she's one the most unique people ever created.

Get to know her!!

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF THE DAY.

SOOOOO, Today's thoughts come from the current tragedies.

Does it really take this much for a MUSIC ICON to be recognized?
Does a black man have to die, before he's put before the white society?
(no offense, love white folk)
Does a man have to die before people stop the false allegations & accusations, and come forward with the truth?

Well, Michael Jackson was a MUSIC ICON since he was 5, and basically- his entire adult career was filled with "pedofile" accusations. Now that he's dead, people say that:
"My parents made me do it."
"He's simply a child at heart"
Ect... I don't understand. That man's life was filled with pain. But blessings be to him, because he lived through it gracefully & will live on forever. We love you Michael.

PS. For all those BS journalist & such, you should smack yourselves. Bringing down a man who didnt do ANTHING to you.

Randomness.

HELLO WORLD!

One thing you will figure out about me through my blog is how RANDOM i can be (: I'm very crazy, funny, but in a very POSITIVE WAY. I wish I could draw on here, then it'd be cuter. But whatever. You know how that goes... & well, this is ME! (those glasses have no perscription)

SO! I had an eye appointment today in which I got a new pair of PURPLE Guess glasses. Badddd baby! I'm in love with them. So... A little bit about me, besides my crazy ways. I love driving- shopping, talking, texting, and expressing myself. I like to hang out with my best friends ; the FABULOUS FOUR!

I like making weird face. I love love LOVE meeting new people. I don't believe in politics, but I'm glad we reached a point in time where a black man can be President. OBAMA o8! (: I don't like make-up, but I like mascara & eye liner. Contradictory right? I guess so. I like MySpace & FaceBook- Find me!

myspace.com/da_real_lil_mama1237

Plans for this Blog: To Blog about important things & make a difference in ONE persons life (: & to have people read up on me and things like that. I think it's cute! Ha, Things are great though. So- follow me like it's TWITTER! lmfaoooo.

Bye! (: See Youu Later.
Sincerely,
A Girl, Named Jordyn Davis (: